Do u sometimes feel something gnawing at your heart?? Do u sometimes suddenly find your world falling apart?? Do u sometimes think midnight is an early hour to sleep?? Do u sometimes struggle to keep at bay d confusions deep??
Do u have 2 try hard 2 keep sum part of u alive?? Do u sometimes feel d pain's too much.. tonight u won't survive?? Do u sometimes wonder how u of all cud bear so much pain?? Do u sometimes try not to try again n again??
Do u sometimes wake up with a tear in your half-closed eyes?? Do u sometimes now forget to swallow hard wen sum1 lies?? Do u sometimes realize that u don't feel d raindrops anymore??
Do u sometimes realize that it's being yourself that you most ignore??
I hate to see d change bt whom m i to blame? u? me? thousand others? hey who cares? no one bothers! life moves on.. fast-paced.. glides! trips sumtimes ovr d lies.. d smile's more frequent.. more plastic.. days pass.. nights.. nthng drastic.. u've canged.. n so hv i.. bt sumtimes.. jst sumtimes.. rarely.. i still do cry.. m still tryng to figure out.. wen exactly we bid good bye.. it's all different now.. 4 good or bad?? nah! m nt dat happy.. n obv nt dat sad.. hey! thr's no tracing back.. no about turn.. dis new so-called life.. hs jst begun! feel d flow.. if u do still feel at all.. m too numb.. aftr d glorious fall.. silence hurts.. words scare.. yeah.. i knw.. nthng's evr fair! jst dat sum1 sumtime cud hv jst once cried out "beware" hmmm.. bunk it! like all things i do.. not dat thr ws more i cud.. true.. well m nt evn sure whethr i wud want to.. so?! quit d thots.. wid time lets jst glide.. lets njoy (atleast try to) life's uneven ride!!
sumtimes.. u r jst happy..it's a lil stupid coz dere's no reason to smile.. bt den isn't dat reason enuf?? n is it always necessary to hv a reason 4 evry lil thing?? c'mon u need dis.. n u deserve dis.. once in a while.. a silly lil smile.. without rhyme or reason.. a smile.. pure.. n divine.. makes things simple.. or may b complicated.. once u begin to ponder!! so, jst let it be.. who cares?? let d world.. d ppl.. d music.. d words.. d deeds.. d rationale b.. jst smile.. dis moment, dis happiness, dis joy, dis smile.. is only urs.. njoy ur command.. feel d warmth.. n dnt u dare think.. dnt u evn try to hold on to it.. transitory.. yes.. it is.. n dats y it's so beautiful.. dnt b scared.. let go.. jst b urself.. evn if it's for such few moments as dese.. wen.. U r simply U..
jst wen u thnk dat things r fine.. things r as u want them to b.. jst wen u re-read a sentence, smile n lift ur pen to add d dot (.) LIFE adds a comma (,) n u r expected to add moments, minutes, memories n words.. it's disgusting.. u cry out "it's nt fair" bt then Life nvr is.. (n all fair things r so predictable, dry n boring!!) bt den wat bothers u most is dat it's scary.. n hence u dnt wanna think abt it.. coz it sure gives u a fright.. dis realization.. dat U.. U who hd completely different plans.. U who hd worked so hard.. U who hd loved so much.. U who hd thot dat U hd nw grown strong enuf to let go.. U who hd learnt to dream, plan n execute.. hd some how forgotten to think abt failures.. had forgotten abt destiny.. d bigger power.. good or bad.. dunno.. bt defintely bigger!! n hence change - deviation 4m wat u'd thot, wished, prayed for, hd nearly got.. gives u a shock.. to say d least.. r U angry or hurt? is it anger or despair? or simply excruciating pain? or r U numbed by disbelief? 1 more sleepless night? jst wen u wer thnking of curling up.. n divine sleep! U hate it.. rite? n so do i.. Bt who cares?! dis is d thought wic haunts u late at nite.. wic disturbs u in d morning, evn b4 u open ur eyes.. y me? y cudn't it b d othr way round? hw cud dis happen? hate dese adamant hows n whys.. take up a lot of time.. n nvr tend to leave an answer wic makes sense.. bt then.. it's morning.. n it's brighter.. n ur nt scared anymore.. u love d light.. d fresh air.. d warmth.. d birds too (depends).. u think afresh.. plan.. dream.. write another prayer.. bt d night leaves u disillusioned yet again.. y do v dream, wish, plan, pray again n again? to feel d scattered shards cutting into d thin layers.. of skin n consciousness? to feel d warm blood wen d darkness runs a chill down our spine? No.. i guess not.. its wat v call innate, natural, human.. silly?! yup.. may b.. dunno.. yes.. sometimes.. or is dis wat we call Faith?! intangible.. invincible! d Bigger Power?!
